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Wednesday, May 14th, 2008
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12:00 pm
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Greyhound watched
Sparrow explore its surroundings.
Mastiff lunged
for scavenging Rat.
We subpoenaed God, demanding he
submit work orders for the storms
so we could get
our money back.
The Oracle of Decatur breathes
sewer grates and boiled shrimp.
She knows this isn't
ancient Greece and why God acts
the way he does.
She knows coming from kissing
secretive felons on sharp rocks
won't heal the hole in my soul.
The Oracle knows where
your go-cup will end up and when
the last runaway will call home.
current mood:  indescribable
current music: Pink Anderson
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| Friday, April 25th, 2008
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5:03 pm
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25 pages into the new (and hopefully improved) work, Word froze. I only lost a page, but I took that as a sign to take a break. Made some lunch and checked the news. Found this:
"Sophie Lancaster was killed for being a grunger, or goth. Helen Pidd interviewed her mother and young goths who can't understand the blows, rocks, bricks and abuse their appearance attracts"
http://www.guardian.co.uk/society/2008/apr/25/goth.violence
current mood:  working
current music: weed whackers and crackheads
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| Thursday, April 17th, 2008
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1:56 pm - Work in Progress:
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A pen and ink girl with a twisted heart knows
Albert Einstein’s eyebrows were really
baby salamanders. They whispered the
theory of relativity and why the sky is
really blue into his abalone
ear while he was sleeping.
Nobody has ever woken up from a nap
wishing they’d done something else.
Melting M&M’s at 2 am,
I haunt the small house like a
hyperactive nightgown.
A ginger boy holds a
gold heart bursting from his chest,
dripping off his fingertips. His mother
pins it to the refrigerator with a magnet
shaped like the great state of Texas.
Everything really is bigger there.
We gather at the quicklime pond
and dip our toes in standing water.
Our digits feed the fishes.
We emerge with fewer parts but more complete.
current mood:  creative
current music: Sahara Blue (Brussels)--Barbara Gogan
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| Thursday, April 10th, 2008
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2:08 pm - "I think the term freak needs to be reclaimed...
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A freak is somebody who is unusual, stared at, upsetting, revealing by their differences what is wrong with the status quo. When a freak appears, the world is instantly divided into gawkers and and the unique, solitary individual who has given them pause. There are those who cannot hide their shameful or alarming attributes, and those otherwise apparently normal people who love them. The cloak of the exile falls upon them, too, because their eyes and hearts have persuaded them to be loyal to people who are shunned. Freaks are entertainers, jesters, satirists, artists, beautiful in a way that few can endure or savor, intelligent in a way that makes others angry."
-Patrick Califia
current mood: inspired
current music: wind and traffic
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| Saturday, March 29th, 2008
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12:38 am - So Chad's not here man?
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| Thursday, March 27th, 2008
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5:54 pm
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Wow, today's been incredibly awesome so far. This morning I got an email from $pread magazine saying they're interested in using this poem in their next issue, but they'd like to edit it for length. Then while I managed to tear myself away from Funplex long enough to go run some errands, I got a call from the people I auditioned for yesterday offering me a slot in their showcase on April 4th. I've got paid photo shoots lined up for Sunday and Tuesday (though the Sunday people may flake) and, best of all, I got two new dermal anchors installed today! We special ordered the stones in blue and fuschia crystal last week and they literally arrived right before I did today. The biggest complaint I have about the cz one on my wrist is that it keeps catching on stuff (yes, it is as unpleasant as it sounds) so these two went above my elbow. OMG, they fit in the bubbles perfectly and they just...pop. I remembered Adam telling me they made the tops with 2 and 4mm stones, so today I asked if he could order a pair of 2mm in onyx with plain polish titanium settings to put in Morpheus' eyes. He can. We will. Fuck yeah.
Had really intense deja-vu flipping through the flash while he was setting up. One sheet of flash just triggered something. It was a black staff with stones and a pentacle wrapped around it. On the way home I found a perfectly good black silk shirt and women's leather jacket in the trash.
current mood:  happy
current music: B-52's-Hot Corner
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| Saturday, February 16th, 2008
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3:35 pm - This is your life and you do what you want to do/this is your life and you try it all:
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*I'm very amused by the debate I unintentionally started over at io9 (NSFW) without even posting anything. If I had any time or desire to re-ignite the thread, I'd post a response along the lines of :"If it didn't involve admitting to my mother I snuck into her room to watch TV and masturbate, I'd totally show this thread to her as a birthday gift; she's been saying I look ridiculous for nearly twenty years, and it would be very validating for her to have some independent confirmation from my peers. Also, I'll hapily take being called a hipster over freak or faggot any day."
This has been on my iPod and my mind lately. It sounds like young summer:
( Read more... )
current mood:  excited
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| Monday, February 11th, 2008
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3:39 pm - Gus Van Sant Takes the Bus
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Seriously, I swear he was on the 24 this morning talking on a cell phone. In a way it makes sense since he's filming Milk in the Castro, but I would've thought he'd oh, take a cab or have a driver or something. I'd just met with my awesome accountant Eugene, and was celebrating the news of my refund with a mocha tesora from Phillz, a haircut and a loaf of almond rice bread. Eugene showed me my previous return and gently informed me that my income was $8,000 less than last year (and it's not like I was lighting blunts with Franklins selling gay porn and body jewelry, kids). I had to laugh: "It's been a hell of a year, Eugene."
current mood:  relieved
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| Monday, January 7th, 2008
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9:14 am - This Saturday: Writers With Drinks
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Writers With Drinks has become so self-aware, we can get drunk on our own
> emotional baggage. But we still provide alcohol for those of you who are
> less evolved. And for this month only, we'll be giving free epiphanies to
> anybody who can name the 37 secret under-presidents of the hidden colonies.
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> When: Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008, 7:30 to 9:30 PM
> Who: Aimee Bender, Ariel Gore, Wagner James Au, Simone Corday, Izzy Oneiric
> and Edwin Li
> Where: The Make Out Room, 3225 22nd. St. between Mission and Valencia, San
> Francisco
> How much: $3 to $5 sliding scale.
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> About the readers/performers:
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> Aimee Bender is the author of The Girl In The Flammable Skirt, An Invisible
> Sign Of My Own and Willful Creatures. Her stories have appeared in Granta,
> GQ, Harper's, Tin House, McSweeney's, The Paris Review, and been heard on
> PRI's This American Life and Selected Shorts.
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> Ariel Gore is the author of How To Become A Famous Writer Before You're
> Dead, The Traveling Death and Resurrection Show and Atlas of the Human
> Heart. She's also the editor of Hip Mama magazine.
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> Wagner James Au blogs about Second Life at New World Notes. His book, The
> Making of Second
> Life: Notes from the New World, will be out in February.
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> Simone Corday is the author of 9 1/2 Years Behind The Green Door, a memoir
> of her career as a performer at the Mitchell Brothers O'Farrell Theater. She
> was famous for performing in a gorilla suit, and became Hunter S. Thompson's
> favorite dancer.
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> Edwin Li has been a stand-up comic for over five years. He's performed at
> the Punch Line Comedy Club, Rooster T. Feathers and the SF Comedy All-Stars.
> He's also hosted the Comedy Youth Forum.
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> Izzy Oneiric's poetry and other writing has appeared in Mississippi Review,
> Comet, other, Spike, Red Booth Review, Exquisite Corpse, Opium, Lodestar
> Quarterly and many other places. She's the poetry editor of other magazine.
> Her chapbooks include Dancing, Kissing, Yelling, and The Art Of Restraint.
>
> If this doesn't satisfy your spoken-word jones for this month, Writers With
> Drinks hostess Charlie Anders is also taking part in a reading on Jan. 31 at
> 8 PM, for Stephen Elliott's new book of politically inspired saucy fiction
> from Harper Collins. Also reading are Michelle Tea, Michelle Richmond, Liz
> Henry, Daphne Gottlieb, and Mistress Morgana. It takes place at CSC, 1519
> Mission Street between 11th Street and South Van Ness.
>
current mood: busy
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| Saturday, November 24th, 2007
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2:36 pm - My new userpic...
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Nifty, is it not? It comes from my second shoot with Inventor on Wednesday. I really enjoy working with him, and this picture makes me feel like I stepped out of Velvet Goldmine.
current mood: artistic
current music: Yeah Yeah Yeahs-Pin
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| Saturday, October 6th, 2007
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1:13 pm
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| Friday, October 5th, 2007
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3:26 pm
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just got back from orientation and buying my muni pass. realized as i was strolling down stockton between the vegetable stalls and people clustered on the sidewalk to watch the blue angels (c'mon people, i know a jet is making a heart in the sky, but it's a sidewalk not a sidestop) one of the things i've really enjoyed lately is the feeling that every time i go somewhere during the day, i'm playing hooky. which is awesome. i'm receiving some entirely new visual stimuli. also realized that's partly why i'm not writing lately: i'm absorbing and storing a lot visually...i've had the phrase 'counterfeit fifty' in my head for a while, and i added 'synthetic aquamarine' to it today...
continuing the trend, i picked up God Save the Queen
at the library yesterday, and started it this morning. the little i read blew my mind, and a print in a union square gallery stomped all over the pieces. i went inside and discovered it was from Damien Hirst's series New Religion. not going to try and analyze either one right now because i'm leaving to hang out with Warpanda and hopefully Roisnoir in a little while, and right now they're both so fresh and immediate, i doubt i could.
also stumbled on an interesting looking dim-sum place on sacramento between grant and stockton if anyone's feeling adventurous sometime...
current mood:  good
current music: pixies-u mass
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| Tuesday, August 28th, 2007
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10:20 am - Wayward Emu visits Wal Mart
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7:52 am - STOP ME BEFORE I CLERK AGAIN!!!
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Both Books Inc. and Into Video have help wanted signs in thier windows...
current mood:  amused
current music: morning traffic & hissing cats
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| Sunday, August 12th, 2007
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1:10 am - omg i soooo totally owe hypothermia!!!
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| Thursday, July 26th, 2007
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10:45 am - watch my tailights fade...
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my roommate and i went to see buffalo tom @ great amer. music hall last night (juliana hatfield was supposed to play too but either she played, like, a 20 minute set before we got there, or cancelled b/c we never saw her).
buffalo tom was one of the 'background bands' of my adolescence. i had a couple of their albums and liked all their songs, but never would've listed them among my favorites. they were always on the radio. last night i realized that i -really- like them. i've always been a sucker for a good pop song, and theirs are really tight. they're touring for a new album and their new songs strike that really difficult balance of remaining faithful to their sound without sounding derivitive, but standing up well on their own.
looking around, i saw a guy in a newbury comics t-shirt, a guy w/a red sox cap...we could've been at t.t.'s in '97. hypothermya and i stood right by the speakers (i'm deaf in my left ear this morning) beside 2 couples. one of the men looked at me kinda funny when i first showed up (buffalo tom doesn't normally draw the pink mohawked, stretched earlobe crowd), then smiled when he caught me singing along to 'i'm allowed.' he and his friend were both -really tall, and they made space so i could see the stage.
this was the 3rd show i've been to this year where the band made a joke about finishing in time for the audience to get home and pay the babysitter.
current mood: old
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| Wednesday, July 25th, 2007
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10:09 am - Spot on Mr. Brezney. Spot On.
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Virgo Horoscope for the week of July 26, 2007:
In the language of the Hopi Indians, koyaanisqatsi means "crazy life," "life in turmoil," or "life out of balance." It's usually invoked to describe a culture that's in disarray because of corruption and lack of vision. In the horoscope you're now reading, however, I'm using it to identify a chaotic state that each of us periodically goes through in our personal life. It's a phase when we lose our moorings, when we're out of touch with our moral center. On the one hand, it's uncomfortable and disorienting. On the other hand, the brain-scrambling it stirs up is often a blessing. It flushes out mental habits that no longer serve us. It provokes creative innovations by rearranging the contents of our psyche. According to my reading of the omens, this is such a time for you, Virgo. Happy koyaanisqatsi!
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| Wednesday, May 16th, 2007
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10:03 am - I HAVE HOT WATER!!!!
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| Tuesday, May 15th, 2007
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10:25 am
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...so we have no water at the new place. last night i had to go back to the old apt. to help pyrogenic move the futon (which was infinetly easier than i'd anticipated and then we had a lovely dinner and hung out for a bit) and this morning after fitful sleep went back to take a shower. i called my old roommate to let her know i was coming, and knocked before i went inside. i could have made coffee but i bought a cup at muddy's instead.
one of the strangest feelings is knocking on a door i used to enter through freely. it's an odd, morose deja-vu...my beautiful room is empty save for a dresser, some books and a tupperware bin of canned peaches, jasmine rice, and cat food which i'll be gifting to the street. things are good, i guess, but i just feel really strange and unsettled.
i still haven't had a chance to buy groceries (that was on the list for this morning but got pre-empted by the need for shower), so on my way to work i stopped at the cafe on 17th and sanchez(?) for a bagel and coffee. i noticed tacked to a pillar a letter written by a mr. jeff stryker (on letterhead) to an elementary school class thanking them for a concert in the cafe...looking at this befroe enough coffee i'm thinking 'jeff stryker? the porn star?!' so when i got to work, i googled jeff stryker, and it turns out there's ANOTHER jeff stryker who's a local writer...so no matter how the rest of my day goes, at least i'm not 'the other jeff stryker.'
current mood:  weird
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| Wednesday, May 9th, 2007
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9:02 am - DSL Reccomendations?
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i'm currently on hold w/speakeasy. they were supposed to come provision the line for dsl yesterday. my roomate took the entire day off and they never showed. never called. when i tried to call them last night to find out wtf i discovered that all their customer svc. numbers are the same ones, they're not availible after 6, and they never gave me a password to log onto the website. i'm NOT happy and my roommates have no internet. if i can't get this resolved soon i'm telling them to cancel it. does anybody have a service they like?
UPDATE: so somebody finally answered while i was on hold and said the work ticket hadn't been updated but sometimes the phoneco. doesn't need to actually enter the house when they install the line, so customer svc. dude is going to look into it and call me back. grrrr.
in other news, my last class is tonight (but i've already turned in my work so it's just a matter of showing up) i've moved a bunch of stuff in over last week and im moving my big stuff in friday (if i dont have to work late)
this is all ultimately positive change, and i am sooo greatful for the <3 and support during this time, but i'll be -really- glad when it's all over.
does anybody need/want a nice white dresser?
i logged 2 hrs on the tattoo the other night and sometime today i'm going to be a practice pincushion for some surface anchors!!!!!
current mood:  stressed
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